Steve Pitas

Monday, October 21, 2002 - 11:01 p.m.

Surprisingly not as many people as I thought watched the programme on the Top 100 Great Britons, but that's their loss as it was actually a really interesting (it certainly highlighted my historical ignorance anyway), and highly controversial show which had me ranting and screaming throught the three hours. I mean how were Robbie Williams and David Beckham in the list? And JK Rowling higher that JRR Tolkein? Enoch Powell (the racist scumbag) also got in there somehow, and although I love them, David Bowie and John Peel? Unfortunately I agree with M*gg*e Th*tch*r being in it, as she did change Briton and what the people stood for, even if I do disagree with what she did. Oh, and Aleister Crowley as well?

What I reserved most of the hatred for was the Top 10 though. First of Diana, what the fuck did she ever do? Then Cromwell, a mass murderer and what else? Lennon, good musician but what did he really achieve? Churchill, another scumbag that without WWII would probably be forgotton by now as just another Prime Minister that fucked over the welsh miners. Oh, and put loads of money into weapons of mass destruction such as biological weapons so he could wipe out those he didn't like. And what does that word Eugenics mean again? If he wins I am gonna be seriously pissed off. The others I can understand, although maybe Nelson is lucky to be there, and I don't know that much about Brunel (although there are shows on all the top 10 over the next few weeks so I'm gonna be watching them to try and learn something). My vote went with Darwin as I can't see how any of the others really deserved it.

And just to piss Mike off, we have the fake....Mr Shakespeare.

Monday, October 21, 2002 - 10:53 p.m.

New poll over here, but review not ready yet but does anyone actually care anymore and did anyone else buy Sin City?

Monday, October 21, 2002 - 10:22 p.m.

I'm shutting the poll for my book so thanks to all who contributed, lets hope that the options selected don't cause me too many problems. But this is not the end of my punishment, and not the end of your contributions either should you wish to contribute to the next section also.

After reading through the forums on the nanowrimo site I've noticed that quite a few people have already developed frameworks already, but that would be too easy for me right? Instead I want us to all write the blub together, and from that I will mould the book around what has been created. Basically it is gonna work like this, either tonight or tomorrow I'm gonna put the first paragraph of the blurb in these here pages, and then I want you the readers to continue it in my guestbook, continuing from where the last person left off, understand? So I'll start, then say my sister writes another paragraph in my guestbook, you would then have to follow on from her piece. I am completely mad I know, but why make life easy eh?

Just promise to make it slightly coherent, and only enter one paragraph or sentence each ok. It can be as long or as short as you wish but be sensible. Anything obscene shall be refused unless it makes me laugh.....

Friday, October 18, 2002 - 12:02 p.m.

I'll be shutting this questionnaire during next week sometime, so if you haven't yet voted on how you want my novel to turn out you'd better be quick. Thanks to you two for writing in the gb also, mucho appreciated.

I've not been writing in hear as I've been busy at work and the site seems to be irrelevant to me just now as I am spending most of my time reading news sites and political stuff as i put postings up on leftieblog instead of here.

My life hasn't been exciting either, I mean I've been to a few gigs that were ok, seen a few films that were good, phoned people and had weird and awkward conversations on the phone, read the bookworms book, smashed my cup, trecked round london for no reason as some training was cancelled, covered three jobs over two offices for a day, and laughed at England and Dave Seaman.

Anyone want to lend me a laptop for November?

I've also not read people's diaries for a couple of weeks now, so has anyone done anything exciting I should know about?

Thursday, October 17, 2002 - 10:10 p.m.

I can't not mention it can I? HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA!!!

MACEDONIA! MACEDONIA! MACEDONIA! MACEDONIA! MACEDONIA! MACEDONIA! MACEDONIA! MACEDONIA! MACEDONIA! MACEDONIA! MACEDONIA! MACEDONIA! MACEDONIA! MACEDONIA! MACEDONIA! MACEDONIA! MACEDONIA! MACEDONIA! MACEDONIA! MACEDONIA! MACEDONIA! MACEDONIA! MACEDONIA! MACEDONIA! MACEDONIA!

And for the second time this year:

Let's all do a Seaman! Let's all do a Seaman! Let's all do a Seaman! Let's all do a Seaman! Let's all do a Seaman! Let's all do a Seaman! Let's all do a Seaman! Let's all do a Seaman!

And this is the country that thought they could have won the World Cup and would coast this group? Oh well, no need to take the piss out of you really is there as you seem to manage it yourselves.

Tuesday, October 15, 2002 - 04:51 p.m.

Must write emails and phone people this evening or soon I will have no friends left.

Been a shitty week in which I nearly got hit by a tree branch, got soaked in the rain, couldn't sleep as had weight of the world on my shoulders, and made fool of myself on phone to Jenny.

Does anyone want to swap lives for a month?

Saturday, October 12, 2002 - 10:53 p.m.

Scotland won the game 2-0 which is just brilliant, and four points out of the first tow games is actually a good start, especially as we shall probably be fighting with Iceland for the second place spot as I can't see Germany not winning the group. But saying that they can sometimes let themselves down in qualifying, so maybe there is a chance, I mean we did beat them in our last meeting. Or am I just getting carried away after one game?

England were lucky, they were a goal down and struggling but got a lucky first goal and then became more confident before hanging on in the last minute for an opening win. I still think Sven makes some bizarre choices and isn't as good a coach as the press make him out to be, but a win is a win I suppose and his bandwagen shall continue to roll.

Saturday, October 12, 2002 - 03:25 p.m.

1-0 to the Scot-land, 1-0 to the Scot-land, 1-0 to the Scot-land,1-0 to the Scot-land.

Oh Chrissy Dailly, Chrissy, Chrissy, Chrissy Dailly.

Friday, October 11, 2002 - 02:46 p.m.

I'm wanting to make my nanowrimo novel interactive so help me write it by completing this questionnaire. Just don't be too difficult will you (which means Mike is banned from doing it, only kiddin' mate)? If you could also offer suggestions to these two questions in my guestbook that would be cool:

1. I need three characters names, you have free reign and I'll choose the best.
2. I need three phrases or sentences to be used in the book (could be famous quotes, or song lyrics, or just random sentences that come into your head. Again I'll choose the best three.

Then in a couple of weeks I'll put up what has been decided so far and we can try and come up with a title for the book. Now how's that for democracy? Everyone that contributes shall be mentioned in the book also.

Thursday, October 10, 2002 - 06:49 p.m.

Would it not sting though?

Thursday, October 10, 2002 - 04:45 p.m.

Who wants to be famous and have free broadband internet access? (for a limited time only)

If god existed, which in turn meant heaven could exist, then I've been there. To get your own introductory visit buy tickets to see Sigur Ros and have one of the most amazing nights of your life.

In addition to my invite to a cottage with a lovely lady, how about doing a weekend away for a bunch of diarylanders? Now that would be something interesting, all locked up in a house with people you don't know and only booze to numb (increase?) the pain, who's up for it? Someone could bring a video camera and we could sell the outcome to some dodgy cable company. The soundtrack would be provided by me of course :o)

Dundee United are crap! We have a stupid new chairman (who I fought to bring in a few years back), no manager, and a team that play as well as East Fife's reserves. 'Pele' for United starts here.

Scotland are also shit but I still have that stupid optimism that we can do well on Saturday and beat Iceland. £5 bet with anyone here though that we don't.

Wednesday, October 9, 2002 - 09:52 p.m.

Wanted: Woman for weekend away in a country cottage in January, please apply in writing.

Wednesday, October 9, 2002 - 09:30 p.m.

I've been spending most of my time developing this area over here. Should anyone find any articles of interest or want to start off any discussion feel free to chat away in it's forum.

Tuesday, October 8, 2002 - 08:55 p.m.

Well it's a start isn't it????

Wednesday, October 2, 2002 - 10:59 p.m.

Tuesday, October 1, 2002 - 01:23 p.m.

Well the Council strike started today and I had to walk through a picket line as I am not part of the Union, I wish I didn't have to do it but life sometimes poses these problems. I just thought I would never see the day that I would have to be a scab.

I agree with what they are fighting for as pay in London can be pish, luckily I live in a relatively cheap (for london) household and get by, but I could never live on my own and if I had a family I would be screwed, even if we did both work. If it wasn't for my London Weighting (about £2,500) I certainly wouldn't struggle to cope, I am sure I could survive but I would be permanantly couped up in the house and have no social life (wait a second...).

In my own way I am being rebelious though and wearing my Stop The War t-shirt which has a picture of George Bush in his cowboy gear pulling a poodle on a lead which has Tony Blair's face superimposed on it.

On Sunday I saw Road to Perdition and to be honest it wasn't that great, it wasn't terrible but at the same time it was nowhere near as good as American Beauty. There was some good direction and the cinematography at times was lovely but the story was too predictable and I was able to quote the final line before it was even said. Paul Newman was excellent in what could be his last ever film role (please don't stop Paul), whereas Tom Hanks was wrongly cast as the lead. He was deliberatly chosen to make the viewers love this rogue and feel sorry for him when his life catches up with him and kills the ones he loves, but if you choose to live by the sword surely there is only one thing that can happen?

United decided to lose again this weekend, although at least this time it was against a decent team. We have three games coming up that have to be won and if we don't get at least six points from them we could be in trouble. Moenchengladbach followed United's lead and lost, but Everton in a rare moment of good football decided to win against our new enemies Fulham (fights in the last two matches over nothing really).

So far today I have done maybe two parts of my job and I've been here three a half hours already. I cannot get any motivation to do any work today at all. I have a few bits and bobs to do but the boss I do work for probably won't be in tomorrow either so I won't have anything to do for the next couple of days if I do it all today, and I would rather look busy when all the managers are in rather than when just a couple and who are not really paying attention to me.

I'm off to see Sigur Ros tonight and I forgot about the tube strike, I just hope the buses are running fine so I can get to Kings X in time to catch a train before they all stop or I'll be well nackered by the time I get home.

Monday, September 30, 2002 - 11:06 p.m.

Proof that the coffee cup exists (now at 22 days):-

And what my teapot looks like, ain't it lovely :o)

Monday, September 30, 2002 - 11:03 p.m.

Here are some pictures from Saturday:-

Monday, September 30, 2002 - 01:57 p.m.

I've just spent the whole weekend surrounded by news and opinions on Iraq and Palestine and my head is spinning with facts and figures. I want to try and coherently write a piece on all this but as I am at work and being distracted by work things I'm going to have to wait till I get home, although I tried yesterday and couldn't get out what I wanted to so please bare with me.

So the protest, how did it go I hear you ask? Well it went well. We got to Embankment around 12:15 so we perched ourselves on top of one of the bridges so as to get a vantage point to see how many people were present and what sort of people were present. At first it looked like there were not many people, but we could not see down the line as there was another bridge in the way, but slowly the crowd started to move and just wave after wave of protestor swarmed underneath us, from Unions to individuals, from muslims to jews (although the muslims clearly outnumbered the amount of jews, but at least they were present), from seasoned campaigners to young kids, from Aberdeen to Plymouth, and from old to young. Now how the police originally tried to fob the number off as only 40,000 I don't know. I've been to many football matches and there were more people here than I have seen at any game so ignore that for starters, the revised number was then 150,000 but I still think that is reserved. I'm not saying it was as many as 350-400,000 that the oganisers were saying but it was probably somewhere between the two. Whatever the number though it sends out a clear message to Bush and Blair that the people care about what happens over in Iraq, and that they do not want a war. This was further highlighted in the programs on TV yesterday, starting with BBC's Panorama and continued with Channel 4's open debate. Every poll in Britain states that somewhere between 60-80% do not want a war with Iraq without a new UN resolution, more than voted for any political party in the last election. Blair is meant to be a democratically elected leader that listens to his people, I see none of that just now as he puts his head down and runs around the world like a bull on steroids.

The protest march took around 3 hours to complete, which considering the short distance goes to show that there must have been a mass of numbers (or some extremely slow walkers), and at one point we had to nip out of the crowd to find some money and food. We were such anarchists :o) I was certainly glad to get to Hyde Park and sit on the grass for a bit and listen to the various speakers, including John Pilger and George Galloway, before heading off to the pub for some much needed refreshment.

The whole protest was peaceful, and everyone seemed to get on with each other (even I spoke to a couple of people), but I have to say I was dubious about some of the banners and feelings. Firstly we avoided all religious banners, as both my aunt and myself wish to have nothing to do with that at all, and secondly there seemed to be a strong anti-isreal/jew feeling as chants and banners signified. Now there was no pure hatred written or sung, but there was a definite undercurrent to some of it and I was relieved when I saw the small Jewish banner waltz up and join the protest. I was also highly dubious about the 'army like' presence of Islamasist at Hyde Park. I have nothing against them as people, and accept there right to their beliefs, but the way they set themselves out and were trying to persuade people to join them seemed slighlty sinister (probably not the right word to use). Maybe I was being paranoid about them, but whatever it was I was slightly uneasy about there banners and their manner.

In the end I am glad I went on the march to show my views, but in the end I doubt Blair will listen and will just go on with what he has started as he doesn't want to lose face with the Americans or the rest of the world by suddenly changing his stance. I also wish I didn't have to go on this march as surely by now, the 21st Century, we should have learnt that war is not the answer to these problems as it just ignites more hatred and more terrorists. It's not like the West has achieved much success when installing puppets into power either as nearly all have turned against us at some point. It's like a slow march into hell.

Friday, September 27, 2002 - 12:10 p.m.

I'm glad to see the back of this week really, the United result aside it's been a bit of a pishy week really. What with non-stop problems with my computer, which continued again last night with Windows ME going crazy and then when that was finally sorted Unreal Tournament started playing up so I'm having to find another version to try out, not fair.

I also found out last night that one of my Aunt's has cancer, which is a bit of a shock. She went in for tests on kidney stones and then finds that out, jeez man. I spoke to my Aunt Chrissy last night and she says the Aunt is coping well and that all my other Aunts and Uncles seem to be doing ok as well, so fingers crossed things will be fine. She is going for Chemotherapy next Tuesday and then it will be a case of sitting and waiting really. I don't know what to feel really as I'm not that close to her, but at the same time it is my mother's sister. On top of that Chrissy, the aunt I was meant to have met last Sunday, didn't turn up as she had cracked her toe on a computer and had to pop it back in place and was resting it and that's why she never turned up, oops. She seems to be ok now though as we are going on The March together tomorrow afternoon. I hope anyone who lives in or near London will be there as this is a cause worth, erm, 'fighting' for so get off yer fat arses for once and do something about what you believe in.

Was speaking to my sister last night and I found out that her fiance's parents were at the countryside march last weekend, ugh. Apparently they were trying to avoid all the fox hunting issues, but I'm soon gonna be semi-related to these people.....HELP! Only kidding Shonie.

I managed to only spend £54 at HMV last night, which is what, about 8% over budget, compare that to Wembley and it's nothing to worry about really. I only picked up DVD's as I thought it was sill buying back catalogue CD's when I can just download half of them....dum de dum. So what did I buy I hear you shout, well I got Tigerland, My Name is Joe, Orphans, Ghost in the Shell, Blood: Vampire (errr, can't remember the rest of the title), and Perfect Blue. Only seen 2 of them so lets hope the rest where worth buying. I could easily have spent at least another £100 just on DVD's as they had loads of World Cinema movies, which are normally really expensive, for £10 so I may use some of the money I have saved to pick them up now why they are cheap. They also had the Stanley Kubrick video box set for only £39.99 which was really cheap and I was tempted to get that also, too much temptation.

Coffee Cup = 19 days and counting.

Thursday, September 26, 2002 - 12:06 p.m.

I have £50 with which to pleasure myself with tonight, so should I go to the HMV sale or Kings X?

All four of these articles are from yesterday's Guardian but all are interesting so please go read. The one about Scottish racism is very true I am sorry to admit, but not all of us are like that. I mean I would never slag off another nation, unless it was England of course :o). The legal case about waiter's not getting tips that are paid by credit card is just mind blowing, I thought this European Court was meant to be for the people? And people wonder why I'm still wary about a fully integrated Euro Union, more stupid laws and decisions. Good to see some "important" American's are now standing up and telling Bush he's an eejit. And finally, an interesting view on the problems faced by teenage girls and their parents now that they are all nervous after all the abductions and murders which have been going on of late.

Did nothing last night really, even though I had planned to get one or two things done. Finished tidynig up my two HD's and listened to the footie (poor Liverpool, they really are a pile of pants just now. Hopefully the Scottish press will lay off Celtic a bit now as Basle have proved themselves to be quite a good side. Also, I wonder if Dudik will make uncomplimentary comments about women not being able to play footie again?), before settling down to some more Buffy watching. Does anyone smile in this series? *SEASON 6 SPOILER ALERT* This whole program is just full of teenage angst soul searching and love and sex, it's just a load of old crap. I mean Xander calling off the wedding, Buffy shaggin Spike, do we really need all this? What happened to the fun loving, kick ass Buffy that we all got into the program for? And the episode where it leaves open the possibility of the whole thing being fake, ala Dallas, has to be the biggest mistake in TV history since Eldorado. *END OF SPOILER* I'll stick it out till the end of the season but I am slowly starting to hate it. Another TV series that fails to be good after the 5th Season.

Eddie Thompsons should be owner of United at some point today, I am happy this has finally happened and hopefully now we can get some stability in the club and quickly move onto better things. This scenario has been going on for years now, but with the old now out hopefully the new can provide us with much needed funds and ideas. My fingers are crossed.

Lana suggested I should go to HMV at lunch time, HA HA HA. It would only give me about 20 minutes to look around and that is no-where near enough time for me to look round a HMV sale.

I seem to owe everyone and their dog an email but I just can't be bothered sitting down and working my way through them, especially as the cinema seems much more appealing this evening.

OK, why do I have the 'Summer of 69' stuck in my head? What have I done to deserve this punishment?

This is not meant to sound racist by the way, but I hate it when people suddenly break into their own language when in the same room as you as they don't want you to know what they are saying. I just find it really rude and annoying. I have nothing against them speaking their own language, but it is as rude as people who whisper at each other. If you want to talk about stuff just leave the room or something. OK, rant over.

Wednesday, September 25, 2002 - 11:59 a.m.

Welcome back to another exciting episode of Stevie's World. We are sorry for the break in transmission yesterday but due to unforseeen circumstances that could not be avoided Steve actually had lots of work yesterday and was unable to complete his usual duties in entertaining the masses. We hope today's episode shall compensate for the break in transmission, so sit back, grab a beer, get naked and enjoy. [theme tune of "Mistakes and Regrets" now segues in]

So yeah, yesterday was busy in the office world. Still nothing exciting but I had a pile of reports to write up so decided to barrel through them so they would stop staring at me and pulling intimidating faces. Apart from that it was the same old really.

Monday night continued by bad week as I did shit at Uni Challenge, failed to get the network working at home, and completely and utterly failed to get the second HD installed on my computer. But this was only the beginning of the HD problems.

By 23:30 Tuesday 24th September 2002 I had around £700 worth of hardware and software sat in my room completely failing to work as the main HD was flashing blue screens and error messages like it was xmas. Many swear words were pronounced, and much banging of desk was partaken in.

By 0:00 I was still in a state of despair as Mike fiddled with my hardware.

The finally around 1:00 Wednesday 25th September 2002 we had the main HD working and I had the genius notion of installing the new HD through the start-up disks fdisk function.

By 1:30 I had 2 fully working HD's on my computer. Now I remember why I never normally read instructions, it's much easier to just work it out for yourself.

Amazingly I did stay quite calm through the whole thing and was able to crack jokes and have a laugh about it most of the time. Only on a couple of occasions did I want to either smash Mike or the computer with a baseball bat.

So that's pretty much taken all my time over the last few days, although I did find time to win the World Cup on professional level on FIFA and watch Man Utd beat Bayer Leverkusen. Pity Newcastle aren't doing so well and unless they win at least three of their final four games will probably crash out at the first hurdle.

Keeping on the subject of football, United won well last night in the cup against the mighty Queen's Park. One of our youngster's got a hat-trick, and the team should get a boost from scoring four goals and playing reasonably well again. It sounds like we missed plenty of chances again though, and with Rangers coming on Saturday we need to learn to take any chances we get as they will be few and far between, I'm just hoping Smithy has realised that we need to attack the Old Firm instead of sitting back and getting thrashed.

I'll sort out bookworms tonight, although last time I checked it was all tied at the top of the poll so I'll have to randomise the winner if nothing has changed. Could people also please start contributing or I may think about closing it, I'm going to give it till Xmas to see if it does start developing but if it is still quiet by then I'll either close it or pass it on to someone else who may have more luck than I do in stimulating debate.

Coffee Cup = Day 17

Someone from upstairs thought I had one of their files and was bitching on about how it had been brought down and insinuated that I didn't do my job properly. Funny how the file was still up with them then eh? Eedjits

I should say something about the completely useless and pointless Iraq Dossier that Tony Blair put together shouldn't I? Oh wait, I just did. Talk about writing a report that has absolutely no new information in it, if I had handed that in at Uni I would have failed. It conveniently had lots of well crafted wording though that made writing tabloid headlines easy and could be understood by Americans, like "45 minutes to kill Brits in Cyprus" etc. Again there were as many but's and if's as in a teenagers argument with their parents, but most people will probably conveniently drift over that again. It was good to see the Commons have a proper debate over the whole thing and it sounds like they've got Tony Blair to change his stance a little, but in the end he's not gonna be able to change Bush's mind so will just revert back to supporting him again when they start killing even more innocent people so they can implant and puppet leader that allows them to keep cheap oil for the American people's SUV's. Well done though to the 53 Labour MP's who stood against Blairs stance, it's good to see that MP's can occasionally have a back-bone. What's the Scottish Parliament's stance on all of this by the way?

Tuesday, September 24, 2002 - 09:22 a.m.

This was written yesterday but I forgot to put it up before I left work:

You're gonna kill me for saying this, but you definitely have a yank twinge to your accent now.

So the countryside march in London reached 400,000 people eh? I unfortunately had to stand beside some of them when I was waiting for the people that never showed and they were all toffy nosed snobs, with their tweed jackets and rugby shirts. Now I know that farmers and country folk have legitamite problems and the march highlighted this, but the main theme (whatever some of them try and say) was that fox hunting should be kept. Bollocks to that. The fox population does have to be kept down, but not in the way that they promote. You should not gain excitement from chasing and killing any living being (unless it is a Dundee fan of course, but what they actually are has yet to be determined). And what was with comparing Blair to Hitler? You sick fucks, how can the two even be compared, I may not like the guy much but that's taking things too far. Killing foxes for fun is ok, but trying to stop people killing foxes makes you a Nazi? Call me stupid but that makes no sense.

Things are only going to get worse for farmers too, especially as globalisation takes hold and cheaper food is brought in, and subsidisation is eroded. I have no answers to what can be done, but things should definetely be talked about now or soon we shall have acres of unkept land which would be snapped up by developers and turned into concrete landscapes. Unemployment problems will also arise, as happened with the old manufacturing cities like Sheffied and Newcastle. Supermarkets are part of the problem and maybe they have to start looking at what prices they pay and charge, and where they source their produce from, but should prices rocket up it's the public who are gonna complain and then you have even more widespread problems. It's not an easy subject to tackle but that doesn't mean it shouldn't be tackled. What's the bet that these farmers go and vote Tory in the next election though, and of course we all know that the Tories are against globalisation and help the needy don't we?

Our new washing machine had better be plugged in by the time I get home or I'm gonna be well pissed off. I hardly have any trousers left apart from jeans and although not that messy aren't the most suited things for work. Why they didn't plug it in when delivering the thing I don't know, but when do people ever use common sense around here?

That's twice today I've seen Jenny and she's not taken notice of me, looks like it's over before it begins. I was gonna say hi but she just had her head down and walked past so it seemed a little pointless. Anyone else want to continue my happiness?

Monday, September 23, 2002 - 11:57 a.m.

One of the bosses is out all day and the other is away for the morning, what's work again? I'm certainly not complaining as I had a sleepless night (and not for that reason you dirty minded people, like I would actually meet someone who would want to sleep with me???) and feel shattered. Firstly there was the tremor (he moves to SF so we start getting the earthquakes, that's not right is it?)which I didn't feel but scared me none the less as I was listening to the radio at the time and they mentioned the building shaking and at first I thought it was a bomb so my adrenaline started pumping and I couldn't get to sleep for a while. It was only 4.8 on the richter scale, but for this country that's quite high. Anyway I finally got back to sleep only to be woken by the sound of material being dragged or falling or something. At first I though something was moving in my room but there was nothing, so I then though someone was in the house (I was the only one in last night) but I was too shit scared to move. The sound did stop but I was too nervous to fall asleep, not knowing whether someone else was in the house. I did finally fall asleep but I don't know when and I checked round the house this morning and everything is fine so either it was another tremor (although I've heard nothing of a second one), or it was next door doing stuff (I can hear them all the time). Whatever it was it now means I am ready to collapse at my desk, and slightly nervy about sleeping in the house by myself again. I'm just a big scaredy cat.

This weekend has been a bit fuckin' miserable. Friday night was ok, just the usual TV, internet and music malarky. Emily did come and speak to me whilst ToTP was on but the conversation was stiffled and uneasy, as it always seems to be these days, and she returned to the upstairs realm as soon as the program had finished. Nathan was over soon anyway so they were happy doing their lovers things.

Saturday was a little better (even if the footie was shite), hung about with Mike, drank beer, watched Dark Angel (which was ok in a brain dead way), shouted abuse at the computer as I'm quickly running out of space on the HD (I only had 10gb, stop laughing). Oh, I forgot to say that Emily complained about us leaving the computers on all day to download stuff. It probably is a waste of electricity, but it's the monitor that uses the most and that's never on. I couldn't really be bothered arguing though so just let the conversation end, I'm sure she'll whinge to Maz when she gets back but that's nothing new.

Sunday promised to be good, I had arranged to meet Emily and my Aunt in town for the Camden Car Free Day event. Well I waited, and waited, and waited, oh....and waited. For an hour, like a shmuck. Yet again, Steve the sad lonely bugger was left in town on his own with nobody giving a fuck. So I wandered around and there was nowhere near as much on as was advertised so it didn't take long to walk round. I caught one of the bands on the live stage but although they were ok I didn't want to sit about so left, me giving up on free live music? Fuck man. So I went to pick up a new HD and look round HMV but with a new sale starting on Thursday I held back from buying anything (I also don't have any money but I doubt that will stop me in the sale). So when I got home the house was empty (as is my life just now) and I just moped about, not settling down to do anything, tried to insert my new HD but there is no free bay so I'm gonna have to work out how to store all my info from the old drive and transfer it to the new one. Finally I settled down after having a bath and I watched some of the new Buffy, I have to say though it is getting a little serious for itself and way too depressing and sexual for a kids show. Why can't we return to the light entertainment of the beginning? I'm slowly going off it, maybe it was the mood I was in but the sex scenes were too much and the return of certain people just pointless. Also Amy is just getting annoying, how they are considering her becoming the focal point of the show if Sarah Michelle Geller leaves is beyond me.

To break this crap up: Coffee Cup = 15 days.

So I'm just fed up now of trying to arrange things and people pulling out at the last minute, or just not bothering to reply at all. I see what you mean about friends being too high maintenance. So sod them (well not literally obviously, that would be too uncomfortable), I'm just not gonna bother arranging things any more. If people want to see me or do something with me I'm gonna let them get off their arses and arrange it as I am fed up of being let down and left feeling miserable all the time. So I'm just gonna book my own concert tickets, my own theatre tickets, go to the cinema myself. At least then I won't feel miserable when they say no or don't turn up. I'm even considering not going through with this round Britain thing as no-one is getting back to me, not even the people who said yes they wanted to meet up (apart from the readers of this 'ere blog). It would all just be long silences, occasionally broken by awkward sentences making little or no sense as I tried to put together conversation that was even slightly interesting or amusing but failing miserably. I mean the few people I speak to on IM will know how crap I am on it right? Well I'm the same in real life and even worse on the phone, that's how boring I really am.

This is why I like work sometimes as you don't have to worry about friends or being sincere as generally everyone is nice to each other and then go their seperate ways at the end of the day. No pretensions, no worries. But then again was it not me complaining about lack of friends at work a while ago? Maybe I'm just destined to be miserable and complain about everything.

Monday, September 23, 2002 - 11:57 a.m.

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Monday, September 23, 2002 - 11:57 a.m.

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Sunday, September 22, 2002 - 06:33 p.m.

"Drugs can release your mind, but they just don't work creatively for us. They get in the way, people lose focus, and they don't seem to play as well. If you've got a party or something, it's all right to get a bit smashed, but I just know what works for us and getting fucked up doesn't - the music wouldn't be any good." Is that really Bobby Gillespie talking?

Sunday, September 22, 2002 - 06:31 p.m.

All three of my football teams have gotton beaten this weekend so guess who isn't in the best of moods. The 49ers will probably carry this tradition on and complete a miserable weekend overall.

Sunday, September 22, 2002 - 06:12 p.m.

Who said irony was dead?

Friday, September 20, 2002 - 09:50 p.m.

“Can I speak to (Movie Person) please? This is Neil Gaiman.”
“I’m sorry, he’s in a meeting, but I can have him call you when he gets out. What was your name again?”
“Neil. Neil Gaiman.”
“And what is it the call about?”
“Death.”
“I’m sorry? Could you repeat that?”
“Death. It’s about Death.”
“Death?”
“Yes.”
(Long pause. Then, a little bit worried) “Is he expecting your call?”

He was talking about the movie, I hope.....

Friday, September 20, 2002 - 03:50 p.m.

Coffee Cup = 12 days. I forgot to bring my camera again, stoopid me.

I rang my sister last night as she had txtd Mike asking if he knew anything about the footie, she was not too happy when I told her I was kidding. HA HA. I cannot repeat the words she used as this is a family show, but anyway. Luckily she can take a joke although the people of Landydno (sp?) probably got a shock when she had a breakdown in the middle of town (heh!), she said she'd never speak to me again but I doubt I will be that lucky :o)

I have been escorting people to tests and interviews today and one of the lasses was very yummy, she had a nice skirt and leather boots on. Lets hope she gets the job.

Remember: When filling a bottle with water, remember to take the lid off so as not to get covered in water in the middle of the corridor.

The Countryside Alliance are marching this weekend, who wants to join me in central london and shout abuse at the toffy nosed, tory, murderers? I'll probably be in town anyway as it is Car Free Day and Camden are having stalls and attractions near the British Museum so I'll have a nose round there first.

I can't believe it is friday already, the week seems to have dissapeared really quickly, as has my pay cheque. Where does it all go? No real plans for this weekend, so yet again stuck in on a friday and saturday nighy. I am such a sad loner. Should anyone wish to whisk me away to better things feel free to turn up on my door and drag me to some dodgy pub where there's plenty of drinks and the girls start off ugly, then become better looking than Winona Ryder by the end of the evening.

Since it's a friday I decided to treat myself and bought some doughnuts to get me through the afternoon. Yummmmmmm.

The football last night was quite good, Chelsea didn't play very well but just watching Zola was worth the entry fee. He may be getting on in years but he still has such control over a game, his running, vision and skill is just amazing. I still don't understand how he never got more caps for Italy. The rest of the team were a little flat though, with only Lampard when he came on as sub, and Desailly showing any great skill (who I've never been a great fan of, but yesterday you could see his class). Viking should never have scored as they only really had two or three opportunities in the whole game, but Chelsea's defence just completely switched off in the final minute and a sub who only last season was playing for Bristol City headed in a simple goal. I was dissapointed by the size of the crowd, and the atmosphere was a little funereal at times but when they got going it was good. No exciting songs to report on though, just the usual chants and shouts. They made enouugh noise booing the team off at the end though, even if they had won 2-1.

Half the bands I want to download from Kazza aren't available which just sucks, come on you guys, I know some of you actually have some taste so please log on and let me listen to what you've got. Pwetty pwease. As for the ones that that do have decent songs I want, they have really slow connections, boo hiss. They should add a an option like Napster used to havewhere you could choose which bandwidth you wanted to download from, that would be extremely useful.